It was 7:30 AM when I got the phone call. I was barely conscious, having laid down a few scant minutes before. I’d stayed up all night watching television with one of my roommates and then, long after the light seeped through the blinds, communing with Safran, who had first appeared to me a couple of weeks before. I was completely obsessed with her already.
To be honest, I didn’t really want a job at all, but going jobless is a luxury only the rich can afford, or those with rich, helpful family members. I am, and have, neither. At that point I’d spent four years of my life cleaning hotel rooms, three months prepping and dishwashing at my university’s food service before I was forced to discard the job because there was no work in the summer and what work could be had was only part-time, two and a half years being a front desk clerk (“Guest Services” is a job-title that should be viewed with extreme suspicion), and an awkward five months at fast food when I couldn’t stand being a desk clerk anymore, and hey, they were paying $9/hr. Of the jobs, I was too meticulous to be efficient enough to clean 20-45 rooms a day in eight hours, food service was the only one I remembered fondly, and fast food would have been acceptable despite some of it’s obvious and not so obvious drawbacks if the married owner hadn’t kept making passes at me. The concept of further customer service filled me with dread, and I wanted only to hide in the back room of somewhere, anywhere that I didn’t have to cope with strangers who looked at me as if they’d just discovered a louse, or men who asked me if I’d tuck them in. My last two jobs had given me daily panic attacks; the idea of finding a new daily nightmare was terrifying. I’d begged a month of freedom “to work on my novel” from Mr. Wonderful after finishing my bachelor’s degree, but that was all I dared.
Dishwashing, Safran urged, you have to know something about kitchens and cooking. At least you could observe the people, pick something up. Why not? So I filled out an application. I could hide in the back of a restaurant and everything would be…
Sane. Logical. Safe. Kitchens are none of those things, of course, but I didn’t know that at the time.
I picked up the phone, and listened foggily as the Chef explained that he’d like me to come in for an interview. I wasn’t lucid; I could almost hear the doubt in the man’s voice as I stumbled in my effort to find coherent speech.
I had to scoop up some wrinkled, already worn clothes off the floor for my interview. The slacks and blouse I’d bought for interviews would probably discount any idea that I was willing to do a dirty, wet job, but it hadn’t occurred to me to do laundry the night before; no where else I’d put in an application had called me back yet. “I’m applying to be a dishwasher; I shouldn’t look too nice, right?” I asked Mr. Wonderful dubiously. “Yeah, sure.” He rolled over and went back to bed, not exactly the most reassuring response.
I sat in the kitchen’s office for a half hour, feeling apprehensive as I contemplated a post card pinned to the wall of a female model’s thong-clad derriere. I think this is a bad idea, I told Safran, quite possibly the worst I’ve ever had.
She laughed. You have to pay the bills, she reminded me, and I grit my teeth at her, give it a chance.
Maybe they won’t hire me. I mean, I haven’t showered, slept, and I’m wearing clothes that are so crinkly they’ve obviously been laying on my floor for over a week. I’m so tired I can’t string a sentence together.
Safran and I continued to argue. She wanted this badly. I wanted to run out the door, far away from the indication of potential sexual harassment that was taunting me. I contemplated getting up and walking out the door, and then the Chef walked back in. My escape plan was foiled, blast!
“Is this only a summer job for you?” he asked, and “Do you have any other jobs you’re considering?” No, and well, okay Barne’s and Noble obviously wasn’t calling me back to sort books in a back room, and I wasn’t interested in driving to another city every day, especially in the eight months of the year when the weather would make this less than desirable, to dye t-shirts even if it would pay almost twice what this job was offering. When I’d handed in my application at the t-shirt dyeing place, the atmosphere had been cold, concrete, and thankless. I’d had to sign a statement saying that I understood that the job might cause permanent lung damage if I was even offered the job in the first place. Yuck.
My answers to those two questions were apparently all that was required. There was nothing rigorous about this interview. I wondered why he’d even bothered to see me in person in the first place.
“Can you start today?” I looked blearily at my application, handed in the day before. It did say that I could start today; if I said otherwise now one answer would be in conflict with the other.
Now I had less than a half hour to run back to my house, find my paperwork, and return with proof that I was a valid human being and tax paying citizen before breakfast went into full swing and the Chef had no time for me (kitchen hiring tip: never call on the Chef during busy hours; it’s a sure way to count yourself out of the hiring pool). That was easier said than done, but at last, after reading all the manuals and signing all the forms, I stumbled home at noon and attempted to grab three hours of sleep.
On Thursday, June 14, 2007, I was blissfully unaware of what I’d just gotten myself into, but I was about to find out.
On a related reading note, both of these blog posts contain gems of truth about the restaurant industry, including some of the reasons why we may simultaneously hate and love our jobs: